Lonely life, shards of a broken family
My spirit falls, breaks and melts away
Screaming in my pillow... Why today!?
The panic has begun, it was just yesterday
Clawing at the image drifting away from me
I keep holding on to that small piece of sanity

Your soul runs through my veins
The voices I hear, oh so sincere
The love is so intense, so profound
Tender sweet laughs & lies all I hear

Sheltering the real world, Mirrors mock at me
Safely inside my shell, Please save from this hell
The only life I lead a lie, existence my insanity
If only you could feel my reality, how can you ever forgive me?
Crippling misery poor tortured me, my only company stretching skin over my anxiety

Darkening clouds on the horizon, your silhouette so far away
Nightmares haunt and torture my very core every night
Individual screams and shakes keep me awake in obscurity
The smallest hug has lasted forever, losing moments in a past veracity

No-one else knows, nor cares to understand
You were just over 4yrs old, my head in the sand
Empty spaces in my heart
The life and lies torn apart
The memories of yesteryear still so fresh
Scars I adorn and show upon my flesh

Losing moments in your memories, I am so very cold
Ten birthdays ago "Don't ever F***ing call here again" she told
Crushing my body, my mind, my world
My heart bled out, my psyche collapsed
Ten years Seven months and Three weeks later, my soul unsold

My world torn away, a left turn
No bridges, No rescue... just pain
My life so vacant, filled with disdain
A decade of loneliness, a decade of sorrow
The window dressing always says “Come Back Tomorrow”

All I ever wanted was to be with you
Dreaming of your eyes, your beautiful smile
As I close my eyes it all disappears, it all becomes true
My only wish is that someday you realize how much I love you.