My Reality
(2002)

I see Myself In A mirror never quite seeing the big picture
A distorted past merges with reality, like it was a movie
a sick soap opera, that went on way too long
One thing I do know inside my whole being
my princess knows deep down, nothing else in this world
If given half a chance at life itself
our lives would be as they should be
Never leave her side, never let her cry
I scream to the sky, cliché of all I feel
everyday I pray ..one day
love is strong enough to see through the brainwashed mix of fables
...one day

Who decides what happens in life?
who decides to take your own blood & soul from you?
just take it all back, too much time has passed to just keep it locked away
there is plenty of blame to take, and I grasp mine, its not worth letting it linger
I was never perfect, I did all the things people do, said the things that I didn't mean
The words were like daggers in your heart, As they were in mine, deeply
There are no words to take them back, but there is the apologies I owe you
The hindsight explanations, and understanding of what we did...
There is alot that involves us.. which is the one last barrier between her
it comes down to such a simple solution

I remember more then you may imagine, can I carry your books by the way?
something will never change and some memories will never fade
school dance, the red t-shirt you wore that very 1st day you walked over
the puzzle, respect for each other, talking in the car,
I can go on, but you know what the biggest memory is..
from start to finish...the most cherished moment anyone can ask for

you promised me... you promised...

things were not so perfect at the time were they?
but the love and good memories will always enlighten my heart
I have never forgotten the years long past, young days
summer days out in the parks, at the beach
rainy days playing on the floor
winter days bundled up like alil puff ball in the snow
your laughs and your cries, the bedtime stories
I can feel your presence right now, I can always feel it
I will always feel it... forever

Nobody told me where to go, to see the problem for what it was
it may haven taken a alot to find and fix reality
but at no point have I forgotten a single thing about you
every second, of everyday.. can't say it enough, cause it
never leaves me, and nor would I ever want it to

Maybe this is just my reality...

Jer OC © 2002, Metalwood Inc.™ since 1988